“There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace”
(Ecclesiastes 3:1-8).
Last week, my intention was to visit all the people who have left me comments along with some other of my favorite blogs. I was disappointed as I approached Friday and realized I had only visited a couple. God and I began a conversation that I think is leading me in a new direction.
He allowed me to understand that I have a lot of “shoulds” in my life. I feel guilty if I do not do those things in which I should. I feel guilty if I do those things I should not.
Guilt from not pleasing the LORD is one thing. That is a God-honoring response to not being in His will and is remedied by repentance.
Guilt from not measuring up to perfectionist expectations is a whole other thing all together.
There was a time when I felt I was being called to blog about all God is doing in my life. Blogging was helping me in my journey with the LORD.
Lately, that is not the case. It has become a “should.” It has become a source of guilt. I feel like I am not a good “blogger” if I do not blog regularly. I feel like I am not a good mama if I spend too much time on the computer.
I have too much on my plate and my priorities have become blurry.
I want to have time to play with my kids, talk with my husband, do my Bible study homework, have coffee with a friend, concentrate on becoming whole and healed in the area of food and weight,and more than anything, I want a greater portion of my time spent with the LORD.
So something has got to give. For now, it is blogging and a few other things that had become “shoulds” in my life. It is hard to give some of things up. Hard, but necessary.
I am so thankful for the blessings I received during my blogging time and I have feeling I will be called back to this eventually. I just want to make sure that whatever I do, I am doing for the glory of the LORD and that I am doing it with a joyful heart and a cheerful attitude.
I have been blessed by this blog and the friends I have made through it, but this particular season of blogging has come to an end.
Yes, there is a time for everything… a time to blog… and a time to unplug.
Praying God’s abundant blessing on you!
Your sister in Christ,
Heather
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6 comments:
I wish you the best Heather....
Many blessings upon you and your family...
-Summer
I will miss you so much!!..but how well I understand what you are feeling. I love blogging, but there are many times that I feel guilty because I know deep down that blogging is coming before many things that God wants me to make first in my life.
Blessings to you and what God leads you to do!
In Him,
Deb
Dear Heavenly Father thank You for Your beautiful daughter Heather. She is sitting in Your lap, hug her, love on her and remind her just how precious she is to You. She comes to seek balance in her life, a balance that You will take care of. Thank You Jesus! Amen
I can so relate.
There are times I feel like all I do is sit in front of the computer, like now. I was a gal just two years ago who hated the computer, go figure.
You will be missed, but because of your obedience you will be BLESSED!
Sweet Heather! You are making the right decision. The children are there for only a short while, but the computer will always be ready for you.
Enjoy your kids, your family, & your God in Heaven, and come back when you can!
Heather,
I can relate and have had many of the same feelings. God will bless you as you begin to become more balanced again!
Many blessings to you and your family!!
Take care! We will be here for you when you come back!
*hugs* Your sister in Christ,
Rhonda
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